You tell yourself your not going to do it but you still do it

I want to be skinny i have my goal i dont want to eat shit like kfc, and then purge it up, sure it taste good, sure im still purging,,,  wtf people say eat healthy theres no such thing as that in my world its not possible, i said i wasnt going to eat today i have a goal i want that goali need to shrink my stomach, but everytime i even drink im hungry all over again, fuck its not like before when i just wasnt hungry......well at least all i bingded and purge today was one huge meal put together, green pepper, salad, zucchini, with a tab or cheese, 2 pieces of toast and perogies............ purged until i saw the salad and the zucchini in the toilet...